Sol

2009-05-07T20:29:00.002+08:00

wow!
haha.
been a long time since i've update this blog. its getting old and dusty. i'm thinking of deleting it. but then i'm too lazy to delete it. lol.
and i saw this webby giving ppl advices. i like this one. its about self-confidence. which i'm honestly speaking that i'm lacking of it.

Recognize your insecurities. What does that voice in the back of your mind say? What makes you ashamed of yourself? This could be anything from acne, to regrets, or friends at school. Whatever is making you feel unworthy, ashamed, or inferior, identify it, give it a name, and write it down.
Don't view yourself as inferior to others. Don't walk around with the subconscious mindset that others are better or more qualified than you, whether it's related to work, school, or just socializing. To a certain degree, it's good to walk around with a feeling of superiority. However, don't take this too far, or you'll come across as a jerk.
Talk about it with friends and loved ones. Wear it on your sleeve. Each day you should chip away at it; wear it down. There's no quick fix. Get to the root of the problem; focus on it and understand that you need to resolve each issue before you can move on.
Remember that no one is perfect. Even the most confident people have insecurities. At some point in any of our lives, we may feel we lack something. That is reality. Learn that life is full of bumps down the road.
Identify your successes. Everyone is good at something, so discover the things at which you excel, then focus on your talents. Give yourself permission to take pride in them. Give yourself credit for your successes. Inferiority is a state of mind in which you've declared yourself a victim. Do not allow yourself to be victimized. Express yourself, whether it's through art, music, writing, etc. Find something you enjoy. Everyone is born with talents and strengths. You can develop and excel in yours. If it's difficult to name two or three things you have some ability in or just plain love to do, think about things others do that you would like to do too and take some lessons or join an enthusiasts club. When you're following your passion, not only will it have a therapeutic effect, but you'll feel unique and accomplished, all of which can help build your self confidence. Plus, adding a variety of interests to your life will not only make you more confident, but it will increase your chances of meeting compatible friends!
Be thankful for what you have. A lot of the times, at the root of insecurity and lack of confidence is a feeling of not having enough of something, whether it's emotional validation, good luck, money, etc. By acknowledging and appreciating what you do have, you can combat the feeling of being incomplete and unsatisfied. Finding that inner peace will do wonders for your confidence.
Be Positive, even if you don't feel positive. Avoid self-pity, or the pity and sympathy of others. Never allow others to make you feel inferior--they can only do so if you let them. If you continue to loathe and belittle yourself, others are going to do and believe likewise. Instead, speak positively about yourself, about your future, and about your progress. Do not be afraid to project your strengths and qualities to others. By doing so, you reinforce those ideas in your mind and encourage your growth in a positive direction.
Accept compliments gracefully. Don't roll your eyes and say, "Yeah, right," or shrug it off. Take it to heart and respond positively ("Thank you" and a smile works well).
Look in the mirror and smile. Studies surrounding what's called the "facial feedback theory" suggest that the expressions on your face can actually encourage your brain to register certain emotions. So by looking in the mirror and smiling every day, you might feel happier with yourself and more confident in the long run.
Fake it. (this tip doesn't build real confidence) Along the same lines of smiling to make yourself feel happy, acting confident might actually make you believe it. Pretend you're a completely confident version of you; go through the motions and see how you feel
Stick to your principles. It might be tough, but if you don't have something you can believe in, you don't have anything. If you don't stand for something, you will fall for anything. No matter what's happened in your life, you can always lay claim to the fact that from this day forward, you've followed your principles to the best of your ability.
Help others. When you know you're kind to the people around you, and are making a positive difference in other people's lives (even if it's just being kinder to the person who serves you coffee in the morning), you'll know that you are a positive force in the world--which will boost your self confidence. Go volunteer twice a month at an elementary school. Bake something for your neighbor for no reason. Confidence that you have earned is the most long-lasting.
Don't Care What Other People Think You shouldn't care about what other people will think or are going to think because what's important is that you are fine with yourself and if you're fine with yourself, others will be fine with you!
Remember If someone insults you and puts you down, just remember, you can't help it and that they are not perfect either.

#4, totally agree on this.
#13, people have been calling me names about my hair. hah. idc. lol. i know i look cool with it. they are all jealous of it ! lol
#14, yeah. nobody's perfect.

2009-04-29T20:27:00.001+08:00

and this is where it leads me,
going down the same sad road,
with the same sad end.

where it always 4 AM,
and i still cant sleep,
the wolves wait for me,
patiently.

2009-04-24T22:17:00.005+08:00

Do you remember the night that we first met
you were sitting by yourself and i remember
your hair, your dress, your eyes, the way you looked at me with a smile
i hope you do cause i remember

good ol' memories.
sigh.

2009-04-23T22:39:00.002+08:00

Guess what ?!
I'm only 5 ft 5 in tall!
haha. sad sia.
i'm scared that i'll be this short for the rest of my life.
noooo!!
must drink more milk and stretch more !! lol

2009-04-19T12:25:00.002+08:00

woo. i'll be doing something like the picture above during my WAD lesson. stress liao. must remember the codings and stuff. lol. then got ERP. wah. more sianz uh. the book so thick. must study all. then got EBP. that one ok. cos only do project.

sad le. cut my hair. now short2 olready. like Eugene said: "short hair = less confident." haha!

2009-04-13T22:35:00.003+08:00

Woo!

i'm loving the new timetable.

Mon- 10-5
Tue- 8 - 12
Wed- 10 - 5
Thurs- 8 - 12
Fri- 8 - 12

kay. i only like the timings. lol. wed sux cause P.E was after lunch at 1. if got no lesson after that confirm i'll not be going P.E. lesson. other than that, i'll be infront of computers for the whole term. nice ! (^.^)v

2009-04-12T15:13:00.001+08:00

Can you see the fire that burns from my heart
This song is for you
So perfect
I have made an attempt to have you

Take this blade to my wrist
Help me end what makes you ugly
Swimming in the pools of my mind
You come to me at night
Leave me black and save yourself

Light up this cigarette
Tonight I will sleep with the gun in my mouth
Goodnight, my love

Love to hate, Hate to love

2009-04-12T15:01:00.000+08:00

And these cold winter nights, without you next to me
It feels like twenty below
Frostbite on my heart
This pain and suffering are feelings that you don't know !!

(You don't know) [x3]
Feeling that you don't know
(You don't know)
Does it feel like, does it feel like twenty below?
Just wait and you'll see, you're everything I want...

2009-04-12T13:37:00.000+08:00

We're asking questions
Where answers can't be found

♥

2009-04-09T12:20:00.001+08:00

So let me drown so I can breathe again
I'm through choking and suffocating
on alter egos and alter motives
which weigh you down and take control of
the way you are and the things that you need
the life you live and the dreams that you dream
distort and blur all in slow motion
they broke you down and now you're broken
and it's sadder than the saddest movie
I ever saw but with out the beauty
so I stopped watching, I stopped caring
I lost all interest and I stopped wearing
these plastic smiles I'll wash my hands clean
I'll forget that you forgot about me
and I'll live the life, the big city feeling
cause it's better than suburban dreaming
Living off the friends that hate you
who talk shit on me
like I don't know who my real friends are
anymore no I don't know you anymore
and it's sadder than the saddest movie
I ever saw but without the beauty
so I stopped watching, I stopped caring

spill the ink and spill your guts again

I've fallen asleep with my eyes open
(and you'll lie to all your friends)
(about sights you never saw)
shutting down and off the lights
(and you'll preach to all the press)
(about what you don't know at all)
cause after all of this it's all or nothing
still I wouldn't try to fight

2009-04-08T00:51:00.002+08:00

seems like i've got 5 more days till school reopens. i guess this is where i supposed to say 'oh, this sucks. schools reopening and im too lazy to go.' lol. but i was hoping school to reopen since i've nothing to do at home but rot away. and yeah, cant wait for the April intakes. xD to see girls of course. hehe. niwae, i hope that this term modules are not boring. all i noe that this term, it will be 2 prac and 1 theory. 1 of the prac is WAD. forget wat it is. lol. sounds kinda fun. My class wont be KC anymore but it will be KM. lol.

13 April 2009, B6/204 at 10:00 AM

2009-04-06T02:57:00.004+08:00

i'm used to waiting
what's a voice without a face
i think i'm dying without you here
so i drink myself to sleep
and then i hide beneath the sheet
and i try to disappear

dumb reminders - no use for a name

i'm bored and sleepy. lol

i've seen it already and it breaks my heart, not because of anything but because of you used me to get to him. so dont be mad if i called you a little whore. =) nobody likes to be used. i've known it from the start. i've even closed 'one eye' because i thought 'hey, why not try it one more time? and who knows i might get it' but then i guess love is worthless. nothing goods come out of it for me.

i've run and run from this same old street, trying to escape, but the path gets longer and more detours kept on coming. and i guess this is the time where i stop, rest and gave up on trying so hard. and maybe, just maybe, someone will cross this path and we'll escape this route together.

sigh.

note to self : keep on perfecting sound of truth solo!

2009-04-01T20:12:00.002+08:00

*(&@$^&%@$*!!
ROFL !
Sry la kengkawanz.
hehe!
niari april's fool day. xD
GPA aku stakat 2.636 je.

Note to myself : 13 April, 10 AM at BIT lab there. =))

2009-04-01T10:23:00.003+08:00

Academic Plan	Exam Series	Cum GPA
Higher National ITE Certificate in Business-Information Technology	March 2009	4.00

OMG !! Guess what ! I've just check my result and found out that i've got 4.0 GPA !

wow!

All the best to everyone out there. xD

2009-03-29T00:24:00.002+08:00

Today is Earth Hour Day,
everyone is expected to switch off their lights at 8.30 till 9.30.

the celebration at esp park is boring and there's still lights shining so it's kinda lame. lol

conserve energy people!
xD

2009-03-25T23:23:00.003+08:00

went to Razi house today and played RE 5 like all the way. just to unlock some character. haha! it's fun when u play co- op. ^.^ lol.

oh yeah, while walking back home with freeze, lol! at first i thought it was a chix, u noe, slender long legs wearing hot pants with long silky hair and small figure body, yeah, so i thought it was a chix but not until freeze say "sol, kau nmpk tk abu hassan?" then i replied, "tuh tadi ??!!" freeze," ah ah abeh!" sol," mampos !! aku igtkan chix siak tuh! x_x" LOL fyi, abu hassan is a guy and he's from our pri skool. hahaha! so guys out there, dun be fool! check her IC before do anything. hehe.

and hanes sux cause she didnt give us the permission to view her blog. nb ! lol. xD

2009-03-21T23:13:00.002+08:00

to whom it may concern;
thnx for the msg. lol! didnt expect that. and yeah, you're forgiven. hehe. and sorry that i didnt replied. not that i dunwan to but i cant.

one thing i learn in life is that when you get into a fight with a girl, never gave in. lol! idk why but gave in will lead to more problems. for me that is. lol!

2009-03-20T23:48:00.002+08:00

wassup yaall,
Followed Freeze sent his ps3 for repair todae. at first i was feeling a bit lazy to go wisma just to send for repairment but then changed my mind and just go with them. oh yeah, zappy followed us!! haha! ok. erm, so after then went to eat at far east. fuhh! saw a girl name kat from my skool. haha! wat a luck! *naseb ikot, dpt jugak nampak. hehe.* ok. then like usual, when to razi house, played ps3. then i decided that we should do an animated gif. lolol!

lets see our creation :

Ignore what im doing. hahaha! *aaa* xD

hiyaa. xD

same from before but different speed. lol

total madness. xD

freeze kena dodge? HAHAH!

2009-03-19T00:40:00.003+08:00

Wuut !

Changed my blogskin for today. was hoping there would be werewolf skin but then there isn't. maybe gonna try making my own skin when i had the time.

i have forgotten how fun was it reading a comic ! lol. i'm reading the civil war marvel comic on my psp. cool you know. its about the superheroes rights. 2 side of superheroes which 1 group tries to keep their identity as a secret and the other group which is to revealed them to the nation and work for s.h.i.e.l.d to earn some money. the humans are ignorance. they thought that 1 mistake by a guy/girl with powers that kill an innocent human is all the superheroes fault. which is not ! so if i were one of them, i will runaway from earth and hide somewhere until humans suffered big loss and begged on their knees for me to return and save them. lol!

WHICH SIDE ARE YOU ON ?

2009-03-17T01:45:00.002+08:00

Found this on the internet. It was long but i took a part of it. I'm totally agreed to this and i think most of the nice guys out there thinks the same way as me. =) njoys~

The nice guys don’t often get credit where credit is due. And perhaps more disturbing, the nice guys don’t seem to get laid as often as they should. And I wish I could logically explain this trend, but I can’t. From what I have observed on campus and what I have learned from talking to friends at other schools and in the workplace, the only conclusion I can form is that many girls are just illogical, manipulative bitches. Many of them claim they just want to date a nice guy, but when presented with such a specimen, they say irrational, confusing things such as “oh, he’s too nice to date” or “he would be a good boyfriend but he’s not for me” or “he already puts up with so much from me, I couldn’t possibly ask him out!” or the most frustrating of all: “no, it would ruin our friendship.” Yet, they continue to lament the lack of datable men in the world, and they expect their too-nice-to-date male friends to sympathize and apologize for the men that are jerks. Sorry, guys, girls like that are beyond my ability to fathom. I can’t figure out why the connection breaks down between what they say (I want a nice guy!) and what they do (I’m going to sleep with this complete ass now!). But one thing I can do, is say that the nice-guy-finishes-last phenomenon doesn’t last forever. There are definitely many girls who grow out of that train of thought and realize they should be dating the nice guys, not taking them for granted. The tricky part is finding those girls, and even trickier, finding the ones that are single.

2009-03-16T22:46:00.004+08:00

nisha wants me to post about peanuts. lol. idk why. she also say that my peanuts is only for her. o_O haha! and dun get the wrong idea ok!! lol. or else i smax u. xD
i lazy to type all uh but i give you links. haha.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Peanuts >> this is for Peanuts the cartoon. The one got the boy with curly hair in the middle then wears green shirt. haha. old stuff. xD
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Peanut >> then this is the peanut. the 'kachang'. the one you ate. hehe. i love peanuts when it is with chocholate or or ice creams. nice !
hehe. =D

2009-03-15T23:25:00.002+08:00

Woo! watch this movie with Freeze and Loirz just now.
For those horror lovers, you should watch this. haha!
It sends chill up on my spine.
It will make you scream too. lol!
xB

2009-03-11T01:39:00.004+08:00

As the car begins to roll
I smile as I lose control
This weightlessness is such a gift
'Cause gravity has lost its hold
I see the sky and then the ground
Kaleidoscope of light and sound
Catching flashes of my life
Just then the house lights all went out
I want to know myself so bad it hurts
I am a shelf holding unread words

I’ve said goodbye so many times in my life
I'm surprised it's still so hard for me
To see that I should start living my life
Or I will die unfulfilled and empty

Yellow Angels - Senses Fail

i'm sry if i had ruin your night/day. i just had to let go of that feelings and don't worry. i'm still here for you. =) maybe someday you'll see how much i wanted more than this. <3

POM Shucks la. ! lots of question i can't do. actually can uh but forget sia what to write. lol!
and yes,

wrwlvz pwnz vmpyrz anytymz !!

2009-03-09T12:48:00.003+08:00

I think my BCM can make it lor.
question is on reply to complaint of delivery goods, question 2 is on memorandum and question 3 is the best of all. haha! thought that minutes of last meeting come out but then *boom* R-E-P-O-R-T ! hahah! lucky i remember the format but what to write is the part that i didn't know. haha! now that's over, tomoro is POM. i still can't fully remember some of the topic. haiz. hope can do it. lol. =D

2009-03-08T22:10:00.001+08:00

OMG ! HOLY &^#$ !
Tomorrow's BCM Exam. Damn it. I Hope I'll Be Fine. I've Learnt A Bit. Hope It's Okay.
And believe it or not, i'm gonna try sleeping at 10.30. lol!
which i never had slept at that time before. except when i was young lor. lolz. xD

2009-03-07T16:36:00.000+08:00

I waited for the light to come
to change my life, to change my life
But I am blind, my faith is gone
I'm finding out the good book was wrong

The Rapture - Senses Fail

2009-03-07T03:16:00.009+08:00

so sad. i was at my bed, closing my eyes and rolling on my bed for half an hour and i still cant sleep.
then my stomach talks to me, telling me that he's hungry. lol. so i cook mee goreng for my stomach to settle down and currently i'm eating and listening to acoustic alternative. they playing i'm still here acoustic by goo goo dolls. haha. nice sia the song. xd

i wonder what am i thinking when i say i like you too? am i too boring with my own life that i didnt think at first? and now confusion has strike my mind. should i just give it up and carry on with my single life? i dun want it anyway but everyone needs it even me. so how? haiz.
to anyone reading this, please dont ask me who. figure it yourself ok? even if you think you know who, you're wrong. =)

oh well, enough of my emo-ing. *panting* omg, this mee goreng really2 spicy. x_x lolz.
ok then, i'll try to get a some shut eyes now. byee~! =D

2009-03-04T22:11:00.000+08:00

Hey darling, I hope you're good tonight
And I know you don't feel right when I'm leaving
Yeah, I want it but no, I don't need it
Tell me something sweet to get me by
'Cause I can't come back home 'til they're singin'

La, la la la, la la la
'Til everyone is singin'

2009-03-04T17:29:00.001+08:00

well i feel like posting a new post but i dont know wat to post. lol!
oh wait, i found this vid,
watch it!

HAHA! nice song isnt it? xD

2009-03-03T19:29:00.002+08:00

wassup readerz! lolz.
Damn it. nxt mon and tues got exams. wish me luck! xD
and and not going to skool from tmr till fri. hehe. xD
Enjoy Your Day People !!

Sorry Nish for the pics above. hahah! xd

2009-03-01T13:18:00.004+08:00

Everyone's asleep
The sun is rising
And she drinks long from a bottle of liquor
And takes the razor blade from the table & locks herself in the bathroom
She cuts herself using the blade to write 'fuck up'
Large across her left forearm

To Write Love On Her Arms - London Anderson

Wooo. Spent the whole saturday with my mates. to be frank, i was lazy to go out yesterday. lol. since i'm bored at home might as well went out with them. all were supposed to meet at cck but then end up meeting them at town. freeze, haik and me went to town first since the rest were late. when we walk out of the mrt station, it was raining heavily. so no choice gotta stay inside and plan to go somewhere else. so met the rest at vivo. eat there. and mai 'janji melayu' naot nye. lol. kate kul 3 end up dtg kul 6. ~_~ after eating, walk here walk there. went to HMV cause hike wanna look for an album ? forget wats the name. then hike left us cos he got bowling session. so tj plan that we go karaoke-ing at cashbox. lol. we walk2 to find this forum shopping center. lol. at first we didnt saw it until we cross the road at the place was really secluded. it was located just beside hard rock cafe singapore. found the place, then went home. hhaha! didnt went karaoke-ing. so nxt time then. lol =D

2009-02-25T19:24:00.000+08:00

omg! omg! omg! i saw a preeeeeeeeeeety rainbow just outside of my window.
so nice! xD

and i'm not the only one that saw it. lol. looks like its a BIIIG rainbow. xD
hehehe.

njoy ! =D

2009-02-25T17:35:00.002+08:00

Some people think they're always right
Others are quiet and uptight
Others they seem so very nice, nice, nice, nice, nice. oh, oh.
Inside they might feel sad and wrong

Wuu. todae had our bowling session with all of BIT course classes. it was fun in the beginning but about 4 or 5 throw i gave up. lolol. i got 3 game gone to the gutter. sucks. lol. i'm not good at bowling and now my finger hurts. niwae beside my lane was freeze lane. haha. not bad. freeze got 3x strike? if im not wrong ah. chez got 2x. lolol. we got nasi lemak each for lunch. haha. im grateful cause all of this for free ! xD they let us play for 2 hr then price giving and woo! go home ! xD me, freeze, chezz took the bus 154. lol. we dont know where the bus go. just follow some people. then end up stop at clementi ! hahaha. fuck sia. then must take mrt to cck. hahaha. waste time. tsk.

haha. guess thats all for today. gotta do some hmwk. -_-
yeah, i noe. HOMEWORK. hahaha! stupid pau !!
lol k da. byeeee.

2009-02-19T22:13:00.002+08:00

There’s somebody out there
somebody, somewhere to show you the tenderness you need
Somebody to hold you when worries control you
I’d give anything if only you knew it was me

hello there! lol. i feel like bragging this. so bare with it. okay? xD
hmm, the more i read about new moon, the more i feel like i can relate to jacob's life. its like when bella sort of use him to get to edward. but bella kinda of a good-bitch. lolz. she did tell jacob to just forget about his love for her cause she loves edward more. tsk. lol. and, and, the way jacob like to make ppl around him smile. haha. and he loves to smile a lot. isnt he's great? lol. he's better than edward ! xD

k da. dats all. hahaha! byee. =p

2009-02-19T16:47:00.000+08:00

Xemo*xXstein

HAHAH !! xD

2009-02-18T11:40:00.002+08:00

wuuu! its 11.40 am and im at home. xD
haha. today no s&w, then got like 3 hr break before BCM, and i'm lazy to go for that lesson. so boring. haha.
in the morning, when i'm in the bus 188 at bukit batok near the polyclinic there, there was lots of fire engines and police car. idk wat happen. then when going home just now, still saw the commotion around. then the bus im in went in circle. lolz!
k uh. wanna play games. byeeeeeeeeee. xD

2009-02-17T21:40:00.003+08:00

bahaha! pictures of us wearing formal during our presentation yesterday.
i guess we did alright at that neo wei tat say we did try our best. so i think we gonna pass this project. yeah. so after skool met razi, freeze and teej. they say wanna "study" but end up playing other stuff. haha.

and today was so SIBEI SIAN uh. lol.
well. i hope tomoro gonna be better.

Orange Already Knew Whose Orange.
Haha! sad uh. no more fun like this. xD

2009-02-15T13:38:00.003+08:00

14th feb ? does that day meant anything to you? lol. well it doesnt for me. never had and never will. spent the whole 14th day with my frens and just like zappy said, "sape la nak aku" hahaha! emo shit. erm, there's nothing to do and i'm currently blasting the sound of my music. oh yeah. just now at about 12 i think got the SCDF siren. bahaha! happy total defence day ? lolz!
ok. till then. byee~

oh yeah. 1 last thing. v day sux. so do love. =D

2009-02-09T16:49:00.000+08:00

Who the fuck am I kidding?
I was born with the curse of always giving in
Every day is another chance
To make peace with myself
But I would rather play dead

Sure it looks easy when it's through borrowed eyes
“The hero has a thousand faces”, none of them matching mine
Fuck the world, fuck the stars, fuck the person you are
None of this will matter if I don't give up folding my cards

2009-02-08T00:28:00.002+08:00

woot! watch this movie today. underworld : rise of the lycans ! it's about lucian (werewolf) loves sonja (vampire) but cant be together because of viktor (sonja father) doesnt approve it as he is scared that the child, the hybrid of vampires-lycans, are much stronger. haha. yeah. i would highly recommend you guyz to watch this movie as LYCANS gonna rulez this one. xD

IS THIS WHAT YOU WANT!? we can be slaves OR WE CAN BE LYCANS !! *rawr*

2009-02-05T21:23:00.002+08:00

All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on
Feeling like I'm heading for a breakdown
And I don't know why

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me

thats how i feel about myself right now. =)

2009-02-05T15:08:00.002+08:00

well its 3.08 in the afternoon of feb 5th. lolz. i should have be at the bus 188 right now heading home instead i was at home typing this post. why? cause i didn't went to school today. i was feeling unwell as the flu is getting worst in the morning and i'm too tired to go to school. yeah, i want go rest some more later. niwae, HAPPY 12th BDAE SIS ! haha. idk if u reading this but erm, well all the best for your psle this year! =D

2009-02-04T00:11:00.002+08:00

If I had the chance.
I would make it all okay.
I would make you feel like,
you're the only one who matters most.
If I had the chance,
I would replace all the grays,
with sunny days.
We can sit for hours on my roof and tell the rain to go away.
Go away.

skools such a bore nowadays. my life's a bore too. I feel like i am nothing, a ghost. guess i need something to motivate me to go on with my lives. I've been hoping and praying every single day that someone would come to my life and brighten it but to no avail that this hopes would come true and to that girl that kept me hang loose on this noose, well i hope you happy now with what you have.

tsk. emo-ing. stupid. fuck. bye.

2009-02-01T19:53:00.002+08:00

Continuation from previous post...
so today, met nix and rauz for awhile at CWP. went to starbux, cafe galilee, walk around cwp, then went back to civics library. settle down, nix do art, rau draw2 then me play psp. lolz. sry nix and rauz, i gtg cos cuzzy ask me to meet him to take things for my mom. while waiting for him, i went to popular at lot 1 to see2 stuff. then saw new moon. and since i have the money cause not going to PD gig, bam! take the book, line up, and when it's my turn to pay, i gave the cashier 20 bucks since the price stated was 19.21 but then the cashier give me back my 4 dollars and i saw the price after scan was 15+. haha! wow. 20% discount ~_~
yay! bought new moon already. but not gonna read it yet since my library book havent finished reading. hee. XD

2009-02-01T13:01:00.002+08:00

You left before the lights came on,
Because they didn't want to ruin,
What it was that was brewing,
Before they absolutely had to,
And how can you wake up,
With someone you don't love?
And not feel slightly fazed by it,
Oh, he had a struggle.

Leave Before The Lights Came On - Arctic Monkeys

wooot~ 1st feb baby! hehe.
erm, yesterday went to "study" at BoonLay library there. haha. cant study, like always, got distracted by many things. so stay there like abt 2hr+ then went to eat at banquet. after eating we walk2 around JP. see the extensions. not bad, quite big. then stayed for awhile to plan wats next. but everyone decided to go home. reached home like about 9+.
yeah, thats all. i noe it sound a bit boring but at least we have fun. =D
and maybe me and frenz wont be going to PD gig. =( no fun le like this. tsk.

2009-01-30T00:55:00.004+08:00

Orange - Rie Kugimuya (ToraDora 2nd ending)

On the nights I can’t sleep,
I sigh alone.
How is everyone?
I feel a little lonely.

I guess it’s not like myself.
So stop laughing;
I just don’t know
My true self.

Within the vast world, a single seed
Extended its roots
And put out a fruit that was still unripe.

The fruit that I wish would
Turn orange soon
Is bathed in your light.
The ideals and dreams just swell -
Hey, feel it.
Today, I tried
Eating an orange,
But it was so sour I cried.
It's unlike me to leave any behind
So I ate it all.
I love it… I feel like crying
I love it… I love it.

They’re similar, yet different -
Mandarins, oranges;
Friends, lovers -
As are the hearts of two people.

I didn’t want to be hurt,
So I was running away.
Then, even the light
Doesn’t shine for me.

They’re miracles, aren’t they?
Meetings and love,
Seeds and buds,
And even the fruits that are still unripe.

The orange color
Makes me recall
The sunset I saw that day.
Our two shadows
Seemed like they were holding hands.
I wonder if the oranges
Will turn sweet someday.
Or will they wither away?
I didn’t want to know my future,
And I ate it all.
Sour…
I love it, but I feel like crying.
I love it, so I feel like crying.

The fruit that I wish would
Turn orange soon
Is bathed in your light.
The ideals and dreams just swell -
Hey, feel it.
Today, I tried
Eating an orange,
But again, it was so sour I cried.
It's unlike me to leave any behind
So I ate it all. I love it…
I feel like crying… I love it…
I love it…
I love it… It’s sour…
I feel like crying… I love it.

the lyrics taken from:
http://gendou.com/amusic/lyrics.php?id=9164&show=2

Lolz. i discovered the new ending song of ToraDora. and its about ORANGE. hehehe! nix knows who. xD

2009-01-28T15:28:00.002+08:00

Your lipstick, his collar.. don't bother angel
I know exactly what goes on~

(I stay jealous)
I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
For this simple reason
I just need to keep you in mind
As something larger than life
(she'll destroy us all before she's through
And find a way to blame somebody else)

sad. everyday.
no use living anymore.
must i be emo?
fuck it.
fuck love.
fuck the world.
fuck girls.
fuck everybody.
fuck you, im eating. bye!

2009-01-25T23:32:00.002+08:00

wooo~ im sad.
never take pics. lolz.
niwae todae went picnic with my mom side of the family. there were strong winds todae and makes my hair messy. ~_~
there were chix too everywhere. xD weird thing is that changi is packed with malay family camping. its like 'kampong mlayu'. hahaha!
ok im lazy to post in detailz.

and erm, rica tell me that when she falls down, nix says that she falls down like 'nangke busok' which is 'rotten jackfruit' in english. xD

haha. kay la. thats all. too lazy. my mind's sleeping.
byeeeeeezz~

2009-01-25T01:18:00.003+08:00

watch this show today. not bad. but before i tell you about the show, i would like to say, fuck all the cinemas. do we look like a freaking yps? do we uh? uh? nb! we are 19 even. tsk! damn u all. haha.
k da.
erm. so the story was about a couple went to have a vacation at this country where they have this nice scenery lake called the eden lake. they encounter with a few hooligans over there. yeah. to cut it short, the husband accidentally killed the notti boy dog. then he angry2 he and his gang go hunt the guy. they stab here and there. then burn him. then the main lady character was also being hunted. during one part of the show she was so angry they she kill the little boy. then she kill another girl. the stupid thing is that she went to the village knowing that the hooligans parents are there. -_- then the notty boy go tell his parents that she kill the 2 yps. but actually that boy was the one that started it. so the parents angry and kill her in the end. then the end liao. so sad. no justice watsoever. she should have kill that boy first! lolz. if you like goring story or ppl killing ppl ( which is sick ) u might find this movie interesting. xD
haha. okeh uh.
thats all.
byeeeeeee.

2009-01-23T16:21:00.003+08:00

'Noodle, 2D, Murdoc and Rusell from Gorillaz'

Hahaha. I know it's a old song but still the beat keeps my body moves. dun you think so? xD
niwae noodle from Gorillaz cute le. lolz. go search noodle at wikipedia. haha. she has a cool biography eventho she's just a fictional character. xD

2009-01-23T00:04:00.001+08:00

That's why people hesitate. In front of all the choices, one could lose hope and try to run away, because no excuse could be used. No matter how dangerous the long journey in life was, or how one admits to being dealt the short end of the stick, everything was the result of one's own choices, it was a road chosen by oneself. Even if this path is hard, and there's no chance of changing past choices, one cannot place the blame on other people. No matter how angry or frustrated one was, one would be alone on that path, for no one to replace you.

2009-01-22T19:13:00.002+08:00

Such a pretty picture
Your chalk line on the ground
I hope you die!

- speak of the devil - a day to remember

wed,
was such a wasted day. i tot i was late as i reached skool around 25 mins late. but then saw my frens sitting outside of sr 5 and they say teacher not in yet. he never came so we went to the canteen and sit until 10. during p.e. we went to the gym for workout. lolz. pichas at fatin's blog. and erm thnx afifah for the muffins. lolz. sedap~

thurs,
well today just sucks. first lesson didnt study as mr neo has a sore throat then during BCM just watch the videos of our role play. then lunch where we have nasi lemak. lolz. and lastly ETP where Mr Dai ask us to do something for our projects. and during that time i just realise i lost that badge. =( im fucking sad u noe. that badge someone gave it too me. im sorry i've lost it. =(

yeah, thats all for now and here's a middle finger for you people. _|_

2009-01-21T00:18:00.003+08:00

You're the one that build this walls around me
while i take it down brick by brick.
After this walls been destroyed,
you will be at the the far end holding someone else hand.

- Solz

today roleplay was fine i guess. except for the nervousness that makes me and chez do the roleplay a bit too fast. haha i think its okeh niwae wats done is done. no need to worry about it anymore. and and thnx for the donut cha! xD hehe.
okeh. bye sygzxzsxzs. =D

2009-01-18T21:44:00.002+08:00

i wanted to share this,

haha! remember kids, dont go around and fuck anyhow. ^_^v

2009-01-15T00:35:00.002+08:00

I’ll destroy this useless heart
I’ll fuck it up so it’ll never beat again
Not just for me but for anyone

But I get carried away
With every phrase and made up malady
The longer I hide behind these lies,
The more I disintegrate
There's so much to say
But no words to convey
The loneliness building with each passing day
You never get used to it
You just have to live with it

- Broken Heart by Motion City Soundtrack

Skools such a bore. cant wait to change modules. this term sucks. project non-stop! still got some havent finish yet. will finish it up soon, i hope. lol.
meet nix, sha and fra just now cause fra wanted to borrow skateboard. i've noticed something strange. for a few days now, cck is windy during the night. and no, it doesnt rain. just so windy and so cold. but still, sleeping at night with the cold winds is great! except for being wake up the next morning. ~_~
i'm sho shad. i had no lifey. go skool, go home, eat, sleep,watch tv, songs, projeks, etc2. lol. so booooooriing. tsk.
i miss holding someone's hand. i miss the huggings and kissings. i miss the sweet face. i miss my mom daging rempah. haha. idk wat im saying.
lols. guess i stop here for now.
byeeee~

2009-01-11T00:36:00.004+08:00

todae went out with nix and rau.
the outing was fun and fantastic!
Woo~
=)

Hahahah!

tsk.
klua tapi tkde direction.
buang mase je.
-_-
kat umah tido lagi bes.
LOL !
And, and damn u rau !
Go delete my pic.
NB !
~_~

Pfft~ BYE MAGGOTS!

2009-01-07T00:11:00.003+08:00

Oh Yeah, i just remembered what to post for today. lol~
last sat, if im not wrong, me and frenz went to lido to watch ong bak 2 preview.
we thought the cinema gonna be pack but to our surprise, its like only half full of the cinema.
The movie plotline was crazy. I didnt follow it much but i came for the fighting scene. it was cool as they combine the famous martial arts in southeast asia into 1 movie and tony jaa (the main character) uses them all to fight the villian that kill his father which to the end he had been betrayed by his own clan that brought him up. ive read somewhere that the movie was a cliffhanger because of tony jaa went m.i.a during the movie and will be continue to ong bak 3 which comes out proximately at end of this year. we were mostly laughing throughout the movie cause of their character looks. lol. The master looks like M. Nasir ! and much more. lols~

If you like to watch Tony Jaa in action then you might prefer to watch Ong Bak 2 except that you must be over 16 to watch it. hehe!

Uh uh. Thats all.
Before i press the button 'publish post', someone force me to upload this pic. lol !

And Yes, I Have A Facebook Account Now. Do Add Me Okeh ? =D
Okeh then! have a nice day !

2008-12-31T01:33:00.002+08:00

2009 RESOLUTION !

So its like 11 hr and 25 mins to go and still counting till the end of 08 and the coming of 09. lols~
For now i would like to list down a few of my 09 resolution,

To find a gf. ( hahah! lame right ? yeah, i know. =D )
To buy myself a mp3.
Get a new handphone.
Get like 3 gpa points for every subject on 09

so far i could only think of this. haha!
i will update it soon if i noe wat to add on. =D

and yeah, i removed the punish to purify game.
lol! the "TAUU TKPEE" is irritating. haha.

2008-12-29T22:16:00.004+08:00

So for what it's worth
The ups and downs
And all these lies
And it's times like this
I needed you the most
And I don't know why
I don't know why I try
Baby all you are is a four letter lie

" Four Letter Lie - False Start "

Yesterday nite, i dreamt of going to Japan. -.-
yeah, of all the places, Japan. haha!
dunno why la but nice.
my life's getting boreeee !
haiz.
2 more day to the end of 2008.
hope that 2009 will be great.
niwae 2008 isnt that bad.
i get to see as i lay dying and story of the year live ! hehe.
and entering ite isnt that bad too. get to noe more frens and the course was ok except for some subject is reaaaaaaaaally booooring.

2008-12-29T01:29:00.001+08:00

OMG !
Im Posting Cause Im Bored And And 1 Week Till Skool Reopen. x_x
Sad Or What ?!
LOL~ xD

2008-12-25T22:02:00.002+08:00

Yeah,
So on Christmas eve went to town with my hommies.
Freeze Got Stalked By A Chix With Dix!
Hahaha! Pity Him.

Then Went To This Foodhouse Called Spice.
Bought Myself Nasi Goreng Ayam Sambal And Milo GODZILLA !
Waah, The Food Nice ! The Milo Niceeerr !
But Then I Think I Ate Tooo Much Till Stomach Hurts. x_x

Next Went Back To Town And The Foam Spraying Thingy Has Started. LOL !
It Was Foaming ! hahaha.
Abt 12+ Went Home.
Yeah, Thats All.
Haha! Have Fun~ =D

Hehe! Dun Be Deceived by This Pic. xD

2008-12-22T21:09:00.002+08:00

Today so sucks!
nobody online currently.
and im boreeedd.
extremelyy boooreeedd.
and and i wish this misery could stop soon.
oh yeah and i gave up uploading pics.
tak bole jeee. -_-

This Vid Is Soo Sweeeeeeeeet.
haizz.

i wanted to see ghost
thats why im searching for them
and i think it would be great
if you can see ghost,
perhaps,
there's a ghost wanted to see you.

2008-12-21T23:07:00.004+08:00

Yay!
Today Went to familly bbq.
haha ok ok ah.
i lazy to update. lol.
nak upload picz. tapi tk le.
if can already i'll upload it.
till then ~ =D

2008-12-18T22:19:00.005+08:00

17 Dec !
Woke Up In The Morning. ( Forget What Time I Woke Up. lol )
Meet Freeze.
Meet Others At CCK MRT.
Took The Train To Bedok.
Duration About 1 hr+.
Then Took Bus 196 And Yeah, There Were Some Shameless People. -_-
Stop At Marine Thingy, Walk Across The Bridge, With 3 kg Of Chix, Hand Pain, Tired.
Yeah, Then Reached The Pit C-28. We Lepak2 While Waiting For Loi, Tj And Dekdek To Come.
At 4+ I think, We Start To Burnn The Charcoal ! Hahaha. The Wind So Fuck Up. And The Stupid Turtle Charcoal ? Sucks !
While The Fire Burns, The Foods Getting Hotter. xD
Yeah. We Talk2, Eat2, Smoke2, Drink2 And Stuff That Normally You Do In BBQ. Then At 12 AM Listen To MJ 12.

18 Dec !
At 2 AM+, Talk2 Crap With Hike And Teej. We Are Having Some Gay Conversation. xD
At 4 AM+, Loi, Fris, Neh, Hike And Dekdek Went To Mac. I Stayed On With TJ, Trying To Get Some Sleep While Pasrah-ing. Haha ! As If... -_-
At 7 AM+ (I Think), Wash Up, Pack Bag And Gooo Hooomeee.
Have Some Power Nap At The Train. Reached Home, Jump Onto My Bed And Sleep Until 6+.

Yeah, Thats All I Guess.
Pichas Will Be Updated Tomoro Or Tomoro-Tomoro. Okay ? Okaaayyy ! =D

Its Not Ur Fault La.
Stop Saying That Kay ?
And Im Sorry Too.
=/

And I Will Make A Dissapearing Trick To Myself. * Poof *

2008-12-18T21:41:00.001+08:00

Omg! Omg!
Cute Sak Hayleeyyyyyyyyyyyy ! xD

2008-12-18T19:52:00.003+08:00

Listen To This. Good Lyrics. =/

I don't need her; I'm not that desperate.
Come visit me in twenty years and maybe then
Cause I'm not done screaming yet
You can call off the intervention, cause I don't need your attention.

Is it luck that's knocking right on my back door?
Because I've been breaking mirrors since 1984.
I walk under ladders, I spill salt on sores
And I open my umbrella even when I am indoors,
So give me seven more.

I don't need her; I'm not that desperate.
I don't need her; I'm not that desperate.

2008-12-14T00:51:00.004+08:00

Well, Well, Well.~
I've Watched Twilight Twice Already. Hahaha !
Yeah, Just Read My Previous Post About Twilight.
Lazy To Post It All. LoL !
And I'm Done Here.
Short-Short Post Only Okay ? xD

Yayy ! Got TWLOHA Badge From Haness.
Weeeee~ xD

2008-12-11T20:10:00.005+08:00

Oh Well, This Post Should Be Posted Yesterday But I Was Too Lazy. LoL!~
(and this poster i found on the internet, it isn't mine. )
Yeah, So,
On Dec 9, I Went To Watch Twilight Preview. Thnx To Hanes. xD
Oh Yeah, I Owe Her One.
Hmm, Watch Twilight With Fra. Haha. She's Quite Fun To Go Out With.
Niwae The Movie Was Awesome. Before The Movie Start, There Were This Lady Told Us To Shout 'Twilight' When She Raised Her Hand. Hahaha ! All The Front Row People, Except Me And Fra, Were Shouting. -_-
Smagat Tolz. LoL!
And When Edward Came Into Screen All Were Like "oooh" "wow" I'm Like -_-" Jacob Is Much Cooler. Hahaha !
Not That I Don't Like Vampires, But Werewolves Are Cooler. Hehe.
The Show Ended At About 11+? I Guess, Cant Remember.
Hahaha ! At The MRT, There This Guy Who Look Like Jacob ! xD
I Guess This Happen When You Watch Too Much Fiction Stuff. Hahaha !
Okeh, Thats All For Today. Byeee.~

2008-12-07T21:10:00.002+08:00

Yayy! Bought Myself Twilight Novel.
*smagat seh sol*
Hehehe! xD

Well the cover looks sumthing like the above pic.
i'm lazy to upload but mine the 'twilight' title is on the left top. i noe that this cover is not the original but this is the movie cover. the original cover is the hand with the apple picture. it says that the apple is the forbidden fruit from the genesis book? i think so ah. cant remember. its because the forbidden love of bella with edward.
yeah, im lazy to type the summary. if u all wanna noe more, buy the book or wait for the movie.
Hehe ! xD
Gonna read it soon. when i have the time.
yeah. thats all.
bye people!

2008-12-06T01:19:00.002+08:00

Toradora!

This anime which i watched recently isnt that bad. Its abt love and romance and things like that. Sometimes i feel like i can relate to the show, especially this episode and this part, the part where taiga (the small girl) came to ryuji's (the guy with a weird face) room and ask for food. After eating, taiga says sumthing like, when she with the one she likes, she will have a nervous breakdown and its like wasting time but when she with ryuji, its like they can joke2 or even bully without getting nervous. I think that taiga doesnt like ryuji but until she realise this and makes her ponder.

This makes me realised that sumtimes u just had to open ur eyes.
sumtimes the one u love may not be the one that you need,
And the one u need may not be the one u love !

Well even so i type this out, some of u might not know wat happen. lol! so i suggest u betta watch this show from the beginning.

Okeh thats all i wanna share for today.
Byeeeee !

2008-12-01T20:57:00.002+08:00

Psssst !

I've Change Some Part Of The Blog. LOL! xD
I'm Bored And There's Nothing To Do.
Today Skool Was Just Like Any Other Day.
Come In Class, Play PSP, Disturb Eugene, Get Disturbed By Eugene, And Much More.
Hahaha.

I've Come To Realise That I'm 18 Now And Gonna Be Young Adult Soon.
Damn It ! Getting Older Every Day.
Soon I'll Be In The Working Life.
At Least There's Something Looking Forward In Working Life, Not Like Skooling Life.
Study, Study, And More Study. -_-
Sometimes I Ponder, What Will I Do In The Future ? LOL !
How Am I Able To Find Myself A Stable Work ?

Hahahha ! Keh Sol ! Enough!
Bebual Mcm Paham Siak.
HAHAHA ! xD

Okeh Lor.
Enough Of My Shitting-Cow.
Byeeeeeeeeeee.

2008-11-30T23:46:00.003+08:00

Oh Well,
Nothing Happened Today And So Did The Past Days.
Hmm,
Oh Yeah,
I've Watched The Rocker. ( Movie )
Haha. Not Bad. Some Part Were Funny. The Show Remind Me Of My Dream.
To Perform On A Stage And Rocking With The Audience. Sigh~
It Will Work Out Someday. I Hope.
Niwae, 'Twilight Skies' Is Still Improving Song.
Will Upload It Once It's Done. LOL! xD
Keh Uh, I Think Thats Enough For Today.
Byeeeeee.

I Am Nothing Now And It's Been So Long.
Since I Heard A Sound,
A Sound Of My Only Hope.
=/ Sigh~

2008-11-28T00:33:00.000+08:00

He don't tell you that you're beautiful,
Let me tell it to you to the beat,
He don't tell you that he loves you girl,
Let me sing it in a harmony.

Let my song get you higher,
Cause we never have to come back down,
And if baby you should miss me,
Just have the DJ run it back now.

Pretty mama if you're single,
Single, you don't gotta be alone tonight,
So while the DJ plays this single,

Single, just pretend that I'm your man tonight.

2008-11-23T13:01:00.003+08:00

~Marina Barrage~

Heylo Frenz.
So Yesterday, We Were Chill Kados Kalamuntos ( Cool Pe Word. HAHA !! ) With Saf & Frenz.
Met Freeze, Chezz, Saf And If Im Not Wrong The Other Girl Name Sofie? At CCK.
Then Met Razi, Sya And Anis At Yew Tee.
So We Head To Marina Bay. Seems Like A Long Trip. Haha!
Then Take A Shuttle Bus To Marina Barrage.
And Wow! It Was Packed. There Were Even Families Picnic At There. -.-
But The Rain Spoilt The Day. Damn It!
*If You Wanna See How The Place Looks Like, Visit Freeze Blog, He Has A Few Pics*
Then We Move To Vivo To Eat At KFC But It Was Full So We Take Away And Eat At The Rooftop.
After Eating We Went To Clarke Quay. HAHA!
Actually Kan Kite Salah Stop. Tkpela. Adventure Jap. xD
Then Chill Kudos Kalamuntos Again.
Freeze Blanja Us Ice Cream. Weee~
About 10+ We Went Home.
Yeah, Thats All. Have Fun People !!

~In The Shuttle Bus On The Way Back To MRT~

~Not Clear But This Looks Cool~

2008-11-16T11:13:00.002+08:00

Wassupz Readerz!
Sry Uh For Not Updating Always. Life's A Bore.
Sigh~

Well, Yesterday Went Out With Frenz To Watch Madagascar 2.
HAHA! Funny Shit.
Was Laughing At The Whole Movie.
You Guyz Should Watch It. =)

K, Im Done Here.
Bye Readerz.

2008-11-09T11:09:00.003+08:00

This Video Wasnt Upload And Recorded By Me. I'm Just Sharing To You People How Chaotic Is It In Taste Of Chaos ! xD

Nothing Left - As I Lay Dying Live At DXO

Forever - As I Lay Dying At DXO

The Antidote - Story Of The Year Live At DXO

Anthem Of Our Dying Day - Story Of The Year Live At DXO. Its Like A Sing-a-Long Session With Them. xD

2008-11-09T01:12:00.005+08:00

Wooooooooo!!
Im Damn Tired But It's All Worth It.
Forget About Not Having Atreyu In TOC.
Forget About The Venue Changed And In A Small Space.
And You Get A Kick Ass Metal Band, As I Lay Dying And An Awesome Rock Band, Story Of The Year !
Both Band Were Awesome Today.
At The Beginning, A Vacant Affair Open For TOC.
HAHA! All Wasnt Into Them. All Were Saving Energy For AILD And SOTY.
2nd Band Was AILD !
OMG! I Was So High. I Dun Care About Anything, It Was Me And AILD Only !
Their 3rd Last Song And I Sprained My Ankle. Damn It !
Take A Sit And Stretch For Awhile And Im Back To Rock On ! xD
Then The Last Band, SOTY.
Damn, They Were Awesome Too.
Although We Stand At The Back Of The Crowd, Still We Keep On Enjoying Ourselves.
There Was 2 Guy Beside Me And They Are Like A Stone. -.-
If Im Not Wrong It Ended At 11+.
We Were Damn Tired So We Head Back Home.
When We Were Going To The MRT, There Was A Car Move Past Us And A Guy Shouted, "Fuck Emo!" -.-
What A Loser! If You Brave Enough Come Talk Face To Face Uh. And FYI, We Are Not Emo!
Judge Us, Fuck You!
Well, Thats All I Guess.
Got A Few Pictures During SOTY Show. Didnt Get AILD Cause Was In The Crowd, Too Scared Later HP Drop Then Can Say Bye-Bye. LOL!

Sry If It Isnt Clear. HP Cam Sucks.
Thats All For Today Post.
Byee.

2008-11-04T19:15:00.002+08:00

The Rockstar Taste Of Chaos Tour invades Singapore with As I Lay Dying and Story of the Year!